The truth of the matter is I haven't wanted to blog lately.
This blog was started because I wanted to study music and write about it. That much I have done for over a year. Now music isn't my life. Don't get me wrong, God is my life, but at the time music was huge to me. That's what I thought about and wrote about. Now my life has changed some. I feel that I learned what God wanted me to learn through my study of music. I still love music and have a passion for using it to His glory, but now He is teaching me new things.
I thought about quitting the blog, I'm not totally decided yet, but I think for the time being I will continue it, I just won't write solely about music.
On blogger you can be anybody you want to be. I can be a happy-go-lucky, talented, dream girl that's crazy about music. But in reality, even though I love being happy and I love music, I am a young woman that struggles like everyone else. I have to cling with all my might to Christ to get me through. I have experienced many things in life, but I'm not one that cares to share my true weakness. I know it's my pride. You feel stronger when you are smart, capable and independent. It doesn't feel strong to need Christ in every aspect in life. But, I do need Him more than anything else in the world. I don't know what this blog will be like going forward.
I have greatly enjoyed writing on this blog, and will try to continue to do so from time to time. I just realize that I need to re-focus my life a little. I need to focus on following Christ. I need to focus on following God's will for me and my life. I have no idea what He has for me in the coming years. It's exciting and yet frightening. God has brought my family through more than I think any of us ever thought we could handle. I am striving to cling to Him rather than to my own strength.
Since I stopped blogging, I have prayed more, I have sought the Lord more and He has revealed many things to me. So for now, this blog will mainly be for school articles rather than music. Sorry if this disappoints you, but this is what God wants me to do right now.
Continue in the journey....
Your Friend,
Kaila
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| Soli Deo Gloria Forever! |
1 comment:
it's not just online....but even in real life, anyone can pretend to be something that they know everyone else would prefer to see and "know" --less of what they really are, the full, rounded out experience of YOU, and more of the facade they love to know is cultivated.
it takes an odd, fake strength to keep up the not-fully-dependent on Christ kind of life/facade.
it's going to Him that builds the strength; it's blessing Him in your heart and writing in the journal and even writing to friends on your blog about how He's helping you in those small and big things in life that builds strength.
we don't want you to be typing out just what you think we'd like to hear from you; whatever you wish to write on your blog should be your business, your passions, your journey of whatever He's got for you in this life; interests, dreams, random stories. because *you* are the one we care about, dear.
*you* decide what your blog is for you, an outlet, a publishing-your-thoughts/school essays place, anything.
much love and hugs!
:) :)
beka
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